Writing oceans

LETTER TO SOMEONE

"The trouble is, you think you have time"- Budha.

Well, it sometimes happens to me. When I’m with other people and I feel like no one cares about this. And with this I mean anything, people can’t see through what we are getting ourselves into. I wanna do things right again, you know? Like in the forgotten times. I just hold that we took the wrong path.

When I got up this morning the first thing that popped into my head was: “I have to study”... kind of sad. But as I want to see it, I’m pursuing my dreams, simply as Will Smith told me one day. “Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you... You can't do something. Not even me. All right? You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they’re gonna tell you: you can't do it. If you want something, go get it. Period.” All right, I told to myself, let’s do this. And I’m trying to, I swear. But it is not that simple, of course it isn’t. You get up at 6 am in the morning and start school at eight, after six hours of class (which you try to be interested in) you return home and have lunch; and then you have to study and do your homework and when you finish (if you can), guess what, it’s time for dinner. WAIT. I’m a teenager, I have a list of stuff I’m going to do and I can’t even cross out one during all the school year. I want to get lost one day and walk until I find myself, see what makes me feel full; I want to see the daybreak and twilight and paint it somewhere with all that amazing different colours that the Sun love to bring us before saying goodbye or saluting the Moon; I want to look up at the sky full of stars at night and know I am doing what I love; I want to stay up to the break of day writing something beautiful; I want to get up one day, pick a bag and travel to new amazing places and experience new things; I want to learn to play properly an instrument; I want to be in love with my life and get excited about the stupid things; I want to live life, not seeing it pass through my bedroom’s window while I am sitting in front of my desk.

And people tell me that I will be able to do this during summer, that now I have to study. NO. They are wrong, and you know why? Because when in achieving something you love, what takes up more time is the journey and if you finally get it, victory is mayfly. What really will mark your personality and your way of seeing things is what you do in the road. And that is utterly important, because life isn’t the way it is supposed to be, is the way it is. And it’s 10% what happens to you and 90% how you cope with it, which makes the difference. And that is what I’ve been somehow trying to explain to you: people have become listless with life and this way, we are walking towards a black hole that will end up swallowing all our desires. When was the last time you did something new, something you had willing to do for a long time? You see? You can barely remember. And this is what I see: teenagers with surrounded dreams, without faith and without even thinking of getting up and fighting for them. What happened here, guys? Who did this? I’ll tell you, society did this. They want us to think that you are not worth it, if you don’t have a great image, wear fashion clothes, are in great shape or have the newest gadget in the market. TV series, adds, movies let us think that getting what you want is easy with stupid short sequences that show someone who gets it at the first time, without even sweating; this is not reality, just fiction. What we really need to know is that before you get something, you will probably have to go through twelve different oceans, drowning in everyone of them and before water fills your lungs you have to be able to get strength from the inside and keep swimming, because it’s just you going this way and you who wanted this and you who will get to shore save and sound. And the most important thing, failing is part of the journey, what is more: if you find resistance, you are probably doing the right thing.

When you are different from the stereotype that society invented, self-esteem sometimes fades away. And then when you try something and fall at the first time, you think you are a looser. You are not! You are amazing, you are searching for your dreams, don’t quit. And please try to be different from everyone else, what’s the point of being like the rest? There’s no point.

It’s time to begin changing all these. Time to show the very best you have, to live without regrets, to stop living in the past (which leads to nowhere, because you can’t re write the end), to start something and end it, to do things with all your heart, to do what you feel and forget about what other people could gossip about it, to fall in love with one special person who also wants to give it all. To write each other letters again, to realize that what really matters is other’s feelings and not how many what’s app do you have. Just because you live in a space of time where receiving a good morning text is the most romantic thing, you have to forget what is like to look at someone and knowing that above all, he/she wants you because of your personality, in spite of your beauty, money, friends, etc. Time to start worrying about important things and forgetting about how many likes did you get on that photo or how many “friends” do you have on facebook. Come on, Am I the only one who sees this? Does someone still care? We’re teenagers; we’re supposed to run the world.

I needed to write these ideas somewhere. It has taken me two hours that I should have been studying but maybe, and just maybe, you could join me and we could start running to the bright side (even if it’s the opposite way) before it’s too late.

Love,

me.